you know when you experience something remarkable, either for the good or the bad, and then you really want to describe that something, but it's exhausting, and everyone keeps asking for the details of the something, and you want to get it out of your system and explain it but you just can't?

or you try to explain it but it doesn't come out with the same effects (or affect) that you intended.

you want immediate and specific understanding from your audience.

totally impossible.

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i went to austin this past weekend to visit a old and close friend.

she is involved in a very sick, neurotic, verbally abusive (insert adjective of choice here) relationship.

our weekend together was marred (utterly) by the infringement of this relationship and particularly by the other person in that said relationship who is quite possibly the biggest fucking asshole i have ever met in my life.

this guy inspires more negativity and anger in me than:

-my dad

-any of various ex-lovers or boyfriends

-male acquaintences i just never got along with

you get the idea.

the whole thing was awful, and it was doubly awful to watch her appeal and apologize to him as his behavior disintegrated into something akin to a 5-yr old's temper tantrum.

the yelling, the name-calling, the demands, the defensiveness, the aggression.

see, i can't even get into it here because his actions were so phenomenally outrageous and impolite and disgusting that i can't even articulate them with any panache.

how do i tell a friend of over 10 years that her boyfriend is the pit of hell?

hmmm.