i don't even know why i am writing this shit down.

a few moments ago it felt like it needed to be written down but maybe now i don't have so much to say. weird how the energy wanes like that.

nathan had a child this morning. well, his ex-gf did. well, we hope that it's his, it remains to be seen. so i may be an aunt and i may not and even if i'm not i may be any way for all intents and purposes.

and the child is healthy and comprising all necessary limbs, etc. so for that i should be grateful to some bigger matrix than just me and the family.

other ordeals continue but are not really worth mentioning. i'm trying to save my energy so that the last remnants of this ice prison evaporate and i can survey the landscape unblurred.