binky read my cards this weekend. i shuffled, and from the other end of the phone line, she muddled through a brief history of lonliness, choice, and the goddess (of transformation?) Hecate.

at the risk of sounding new-agey- she (binky) made the emphatic point that the things that happen to us- the major shifts, the big life-changes, the tragedies and transformations, are events that, in large part, occur because some part of our psyche asks them to.

"you've called this lesson to yourself," is a phrase I've heard often from my mother and other women in my family for the past few years. And I wonder, how do i get in touch with that part of myself that invites all these happenings- and tell it to just slow down for a while?

There was a point last week when I felt like Job.