yes, so it's been a while, etc... there is no where else for me to gripe and the material to-be-griped-about has been piling up in the corners of my house and all over the place so it had to be dealt with, finally, especially since i am leaving for vacation quite soon (a really real vacation of the typical american sort).

please allow me to state the obvious: nobody ever changes. your tolerance for their bullshit may change, your list of deal-breaking behaviors may change, your perspective on an interpersonal situation may change; but i am willing to guarantee you that said person never really holistically changes.

so? i'm getting used to it.

i hadn't spoken to or seen my father in ten years when he embraced me awkwardly (and without my permission i might add) two summers ago at his parents' 50th wedding anniversary.

i'm not going to go into detail regarding the aforementioned lapse in relationship/estrangement other than to say i didn't really harbor any active anger toward him by this point and also didn't feel like i even had a father so he had just become in my mind a sort of peripheral blood-related adult that i would need to exchange information with at various points in the distant future.

to be continued...